Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Today, on my way to the library, I spotted this: The truck Anne and I owned together, parked in front of the library.
When Anne died, it was given to some friends who had then moved to Oregon.
The truck is easy to spot because it has a license plate cover that reads Serramonte Ford Colma which is in San Francisco.
I went into the library and found the couple and had a brief visit with them.
Sunday, the 26th, is the second anniversary of Anne's death and so I am not terribly surprised that this little reminder came up to haunt me.
Sometimes, try as you might, you can't escape your past.
Tomorrow is the official first day of Autumn. Bye, bye summer!
Speaking of summer, we didn't get much of one here in the Pacific Northwest this year so it makes saying goodbye a little harder.
A friend of mine who has little kids read that a good way to celebrate the fall equinox with children is to take them to a park and have them say goodnight to the trees. I think that's a great idea.
But since I don't have kids, and Lucy would only pee on them, I guess I will do what I do every fall: Say goodbye to my shorts and sleeveless t-shirts, and say hello to my winter clothes. OK, so I talk to my clothes; whatayagonnadoaboutit?
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Finally, after all this hassle, I will be going back to work for Option Care doing scheduling in their Mount Vernon office.
Hooray for better pay, medical benefits and no longer having to drive junk cabs in the rain and dark!
I just hope my poor old car can do the commute!
Time to celebrate!
Monday, September 20, 2010
The wheels of Option Care are finally in motion. My meeting with the General Manager was not a trip down grovelling lane. He was nice and polite and seemingly excited about hiring me back. No, I didn't slip him any LSD in his caffeine free tea.
Tomorrow, I have a meeting with the supervisor of the department who has already set up a date of hire over the phone.
We shall see what transpires; mainly, what $$$$ they offer me.
Excerpt from thesmirkingchimp.com:
Tea With Frankenstein: Please, No Masturbationby David Michael Green September 18, 2010 - 10:28am
"Just when you thought you'd reached the ground floor in the well of
American self-destruction, you find out once again that that pit is absolutely
Now that primary season is almost over, the far-right tea party
movement has scored impressive victories over the far-right establishment in a
slew of Republican primaries. I've always said that the regressive movement
would end up eating its young, and now it is.
The new batch of Republican
monsters includes a candidate - now the official Republican nominee for the
United States Senate from Delaware, mind you - who has staked out a tough
position against - no, I'm not kidding here - masturbation.
O'Donnell once averred that "The Bible says that lust in your heart is
committing adultery. So you can't masturbate without lust."
And why the hell not? Surely the reason that our country has so rapidly
fallen into decline is that god is punishing America because so many of us are
jerking off all the time.
You know who you are."
I find this disturbing in so many ways. What I do in the privacy of my own home with my boa-constrictor and 10-40 motor oil is my business. It is the inalienable right to life, liberty and the pursuit of a great orgasm!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Today is Anne's 52nd birthday, had she hung around to celebrate it.
Had a terrible dream Friday night of her death and it felt in the dream exactly as painful as the day she died.
Spent the day with a raging headache, stopped and bought a six-pack of beer on the way home from work, drank it all, and cried my eyes out.
I haven't cried about Anne for nearly a year, though I think about her almost every day.
So, today I have a mambo hangover and have to go to work in an hour.
On Sunday, September 26, is the second anniversary of her death. Oy.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
I have just started reading, "The Irrational Atheist", by Vox Day. Here's an excerpt from Amazon:
A perceptive examination of modern day atheism, this book challenges the
argument that religion and reason are fundamentally at odds—a contention made by
three prominent scholars on atheism: Richard Dawkins, Daniel Dennett, and Sam
Harris. While other religious apologetics have challenged atheism on theological
or biblical grounds, this book fights fire with fire, disproving the scholars'
logic through modern, secular reason. Rigorously documented and supported by
hard factual data, this careful analysis is critical reading for any religious
person seeking to rebut the assertions of new atheists and essential information
for any open-minded atheist who wants his beliefs to stand on firm ground.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Got to talking to a friend on the phone last night and drank a few too many.
Today's my day off so I guess it's ok.
Only problem is, there are carpenters right outside my bedroom window replacing railings on the balconies above me.
I awoke to hammering, sawing, drilling...at first I thought it was my hangover.
Never again. Oh, I always say that!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Every day I get a Daily Dharma email. This one really hit home:
August 17, 2010
Tricycle Daily Dharma
Taking Responsibility for
Surely one of the main problems we face, as a species and as
a planet, is that we are lying in our own excrement. All the waste products
produced by our consumption, from garbage and debris to chemical toxins and
exotic poisons, are oozing out of us and soiling the environment we inhabit. And
what the Buddha says about everything else surely applies here: Nothing happens
without a cause. Things are the way they are not because of chance or the will
of a deity but because people have acted in particular ways and generated
particular consequences. The world we inhabit is the product of our actions,
which are themselves reflections of our minds....
If we do not care for
one another, who else will care for us? Who among us has the right to say of
another, “He is of no use to us?” For better or worse, whether we like it or
not, we are all in this together. Learning how to care for one another is a
central part of the path and of the practice.
- Andrew Olendzki,
"Medicine for the World"
As a society and as a country we live as though we are entitled to owning lots of stuff. How did this happen?
Go in to a Christian book store and there is a Bible version for every type of person on the planet (except gays of course).
Check out a Buddhist magazine and you will find page after page of glossy ads for meditation supplies and new books on how to simplify your life!
Any religion. Any political party. Any race. We all want stuff.
Is it any wonder we are so gluttonous a country that we will go to war, essentially, to protect our ability to collect and dispose of stuff?
Monday, August 16, 2010
Haven't heard a thing from those Pucker-stringed-melon-sucking-vampiric corporate yahoohs yet.
Of course, they move at glacial speed so I may be ready for retirement before I hear from them.
No, I believe I have to go before his majesty the general manager and grovel first. I will have to swear on all I believe is holy (the list of which shortens by the day), that I shall neither cuss, swear, or raise my voice, I shall keep my demonesque tattoos covered and I shall not leave my beloved position regardless of rain, wind or dark of night...or a family problem.
I shall then have to swear fealty to the Mormon religion, confess that men are superior to women, and if I haven't gone out and thrown myself in front of a moving bus, go back into the corporate world of cubicles, air-conditioning, one-hour lunches and Christmas parties.
God, am I depressed...
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Seems that Option Care is now hiring again.
I had an interview with my old boss who is drooling at the thought of hiring me back to schedule again. Except for one thing.
Apparently my use of colorful language in the office has left a bad taste in the mouth of the general manager who is Mormon.
Now, in my defense, scheduling is a cuss-worthy position there. If Jesus had the gig, he'd be kicking trash cans and using his own name in vain!
So, I am going to start using this: Captain Haddock's Curses: Macrocephalic baboon! Megacycle. Megacycle Pyromaniac! Mameluke! Miserable blundering barbecued blister! Miserable earth worms! Miserable miser! Miserable molecule of mildew! Misguided missles! MisterMule! Monopolizers! Monster! Morons! Moujiks! Mountebanks! Musical morons!
You can find the entire list at "the Cult of Tintin".
Friday, August 6, 2010
Quote I found on facebook:
"Today I quit being a Christian. I remain committed to Christ as always, but
not to being part of Christianity. It's simply impossible for me to 'belong' to
this quarrelsome, hostile, disputatious and deservedly infamous group...My
conscience will allow nothing else. In the name of Christ, I refuse to be
anti-gay. I refuse to be anti-feminist. I refuse to be anti-Democrat. I refuse
to be anti-science." Anne Rice.
It is a sad thing to think that a religious path that "seeks" to love its neighbor as itself has become infiltrated with such hatred and bigotry or has become such pablum in order to fit in it cannot be tolerated by those with any passion.
There are those who would say this is a sign of the End Times and is supposed to be. But this hostility and hatred has been going on for two thousand years!
I wonder, what WOULD Jesus do?
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I love my country, but sometimes I fear my "fellow Americans".
Oak Harbor, where Katie lives, is a Navy town. They can't help that.
We tried out a little restaurant for dinner and once inside realized it was decked out from stem to stern, floor to ceiling with military memorabilia. Spam, yes that gelatinous mystery meat, was proudly served.
We ate, paid our bill, saluted and got the hell out of there.
Everything in that little town is geared toward the military, especially the Navy. Even the Goodwill has used military clothes for sale, though no grenade launchers which I really would have considered buying...for apple season...
Now, I love that we have a strong military mostly because if we were taken over by a foreign country with a foreign language and, gasp, the metric system, I'd be screwed.
But I am a hippie at heart. And gay. Two things the military frowns upon.
So I wonder, if Oak Harbor is this bad, what's San Diego gonna be like?
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Yes, it is a record for me; 4 days without coffee.
Blame it on the stomach flu.
Awoke Wednesday morning to spend the day on the toilet with a puke bucket in my lap, expelling every single bit of food and fluid from my GI tract.
By the end of the day, I could have had a colonoscopy I was so empty.
Thursday, I had a half a bowl of soup and a glass of Gatorade.
Friday, four Saltines and several glasses of Gatorade.
Saturday I managed real food, though not much of it.
Today, my first cup of coffee.
I think I'm gonna live!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
The Tea Party scares me. I mean, Sarah Palin? Give me a break!
I found this through Facebook and it looks interesting.
COFFEE PARTY MISSION STATEMENT: The Coffee Party Movement gives voice to
Americans who want to see cooperation in government. We recognize that the
federal government is not the enemy of the people, but the expression of our
collective will, and that we must participate in the democratic process in order
to address the challenges that we face as Americans. As voters and grassroots
volunteers, we will support leaders who work toward positive solutions, and hold
accountable those who obstruct them.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
So I am driving a woman from the airport yesterday. She just returned from Chicago where she works one week a month as a specialized accountant.
One project they had worked on was to lay 10 inch water pipe in a neighborhood in Chicago. To do so, they had to get all the city permits.
One form they had to fill out concerned the racial makeup of the people in the neighborhood they were laying pipe in.
HUH? What's that got to do with 10 inch water pipe?
Our government, in it's infinite wisdom, is paying some yahoo to print, mail and peruse these forms.
It was so ludicrous I just laughed my head off. Till I thought about it...
Friday, June 25, 2010
“Why do rational people act irrationally? Written like a fast paced detective
novel, "Buyology" unveils what neuromarketers know about our decision making so
we can buy and sell more insightfully."
- Dr. Mehmet C Oz Professor of
Surgery, Columbia University, and author of YOU -The Owner’s Manual
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Katie's daughter got her official orders and so it's off to San Diego for the lot of 'em in November. Since she is the only family member who can take care of Ian, her grandson, she has to go.
So, I am seriously considering...moving to San Diego with her. Yes, that's right, San Diego.
I will have gone full circle. I moved with Cathy, my first partner, to San Francisco, then to Washington with Anne.
Am I crazy? I don't know. But, when I know for sure, (whether I am going, not whether I'm crazy) I will let everyone know.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
So my last fare yesterday to end my 10 hour shift was to pick up three Canadians at the border and drive them to a resort called Semiahmoo Resort. Very posh place on the water, with sail boats and all that cool rich people stuff.
Two men and a woman about my age jump in the car and ask me to take them to the nearest grocery store so the woman could buy vegetables. Seemed a little strange, but I had seen worse.
Later, as we are driving to the resort, I hear her talking to the man in the back seat with her about her purchase of some broccoli and 6 cupcakes with "Happy Birthday" on them.
As we enter the resort area, we pass a beautiful golf course to which the two men drooled over.
The woman was busy asking where the tent was.
I finally said, "It's none of my business, but you are going to a nice resort and you have neither luggage nor golf clubs and you are looking for a tent."
"Yes, we are having dinner in the tent," the woman replied. "Not a little tent, one of those big ones."
"It's a wedding," one of the men finally said as if this explained it all.
I replied with my usual, "I see," and shut up.
Soon I let off the three passengers who had no luggage, were dressed in street clothes, carrying a bag of raw broccoli and 6 cupcakes to a wedding.
They tipped me well--probably to keep quiet about this whole thing.
I left feeling badly that I didn't at least let the woman know that in the States we throw rice at the bride and groom, not raw vegetables.
But then, I am just a cab driver; what do I know?
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Today I was called into work early and so worked from 8 am to 6:30 pm...without a lunch or break.
I saw and talked to so many people today they are almost a total blur. But I shall try and remember.
First the guy who works as a civilian for the Navy spending most of his time in hotels all over the world. He was coming back from San Francisco only to leave for Norfolk in two days.
There was the guy who was hearing voices because he ran out of his anti-psychotic meds. I took him to the ER.
There was the banker from NYC visiting his 84 year old mother to try and get her some assistance so he doesn't have to make her move to NYC so he can care for her. I was able to give him lots of free advice.
A young guy needing a ride to his car, left last night when he was too drunk to drive...the woman pregnant who had been grocery shopping...the usual man who lives in a half-way house and has the mental capacity of a ten year old...the Canadian man who timed his arrival over the border wrong and so I had to drive him 25 miles in 15 minutes to make his plane in Bellingham...
Big small, short tall, rich poor, sane crazy, I get to see them all.
Makes my life look boring by comparison!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Yes, I must admit it; I am hungry all the time these days. Not the hungry that sends one to the all-night Taco Bell, but the hungry that sends one to find spiritual food or maybe intellectual food.
Maybe it is the fact that my job demands absolutely no real intellectual stimulation; no challenge to problem solve other than finding the fastest or shortest way from here to there.
Maybe I am just truly bored. There is--and in my opinion has never been--anything on TV that could really hold my interest even with 200 channels to chose from! How sad is that?
I guess part of the problem is that the Christianity that kept me going has, in the last few years, become flat and lifeless.
Buddhism, which I started studying about 5 years ago, while interesting and peaceful in nature, is based on meditation a practice I have never been able to do regularly.
And, there's the rub eh? I have no religion: not a techno-geek, not a religious nut, not a crazed consumer not an over eater, not a sports nut...hmmm.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Well, summer is nearly upon us with Memorial Day Weekend this weekend, and I am working.
Bellingham has a yearly "Ski to Sea" triathalon this weekend that starts at Mt. Baker with skiing, then canoeing down the Nooksak river and finally bicycling to Bellingham.
This means that I will be driving the cab on a three day weekend with a big to-do going on all over the county and it's payday for federal checks.
So, it's off to the races for me. Hopefully, I will make some good tips.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
McLaren, one of the most visible faces of the emergent movement, examines
10 questions the church must answer as it heads toward a new way of believing.
McLaren deconstructs the Greco-Roman narrative of the Bible and addresses how
the Bible should be understood as an inspired library, not a constitution. He
moves into questions regarding God, Jesus, and the Gospel, urging us to trade up
our image of God and realize that Jesus came to launch a new Genesis. The
Church, sexuality, the future, and pluralism merit chapters, as does McLaren's
final call for a robust spiritual life. Followers will rejoice as McLaren
articulates his thoughts with logic and eloquence; detractors will point out his
artful avoidance of firm answers on salvation, hell, and a final
Friday, May 21, 2010
Found this in a book I am reading:
Did you ever wonder what would have
happened if there were three wise
women instead of three wise men?
The women would have asked for
directions, arrived on time, helped
deliver the baby, cleaned the stable,
made a casserole and brought
disposable diapers as gifts!
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Well, Suzie is doing much better these days, in fact, she got her first shower in a week yesterday. For those of us who have had to go without we can relate to how much this lifts the spirits of the person showering and all those living around the person showering!
Visited Dad yesterday at the nursing home. He seemed quite pale (even for a white boy like him) and not really with it mentally. Kind of hanging his head and looking confused. He had a blood transfusion at the end of April and is now averaging one transfusion about every 4 to 6 weeks.
Lucy kept me up half the night with the shits. Every hour or so she was needing to go outside and so I had to get up and let her out the back patio. Finally, I just left the door open enough for her to get in and out and I slept on the couch.
When I woke up this morning, I was cold and cramped on the couch and she was sound asleep in my bed!
I just have to get a handle on my family!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
These days I am reading "Footprints in the Snow'
By Sheng Yen.
Here is an excerpt of the book:
The author is a master of Chan Buddhism, the Chinese antecedent of Zen Buddhism that is not nearly as well known as Zen and other Buddhist schools that have migrated to the West. The Chan master's story is less Buddhist dharma and more history of his homeland. Born in 1930, he had a ringside seat for China's Communist revolution. In 1949, he left his Buddhist schooling to join Chiang Kai-shek's Nationalist army, spending more than 10 years in military intelligence. That experience was but one of many teachers along his spiritual path, along with a few bizarre Chan masters. Sheng Yen has also traveled, spending some time teaching in America. His efforts, however, have been concentrated in Taiwan, where he has developed the fourth-largest Buddhist organization in that area. This book is timely, given that China is opening to the West this year on account of the Olympics in Beijing. China is also becoming more open to religious practices, especially its own distinctive Buddhism. This son of China is a distinguished teacher with a revealing, simply told story.
It was a very interesting book watching this man grow and change and the Chinese culture is facinating.
A very good read.
Monday, May 17, 2010
It is 9:30 pm and I am in the ER with Suzie again. She had the tube that was placed in her kidney after surgery removed and a few hours later was in agony.
So, I rushed her to the ER where they rushed her into a bed and the nurse started giving me attitude about getting Suzie into a gown.
Yea right. She's in agony and dry heaving and screaming and I need to get her into a gown.
So, I blew up and yelled at the nurse. The doctor came in and yelled at me. Security was called. They threatened to throw me out of the hospital.
Blame it on the tattoos I guess. I am not that threatening!
Oh, the drama.
So, Suzie has been given pain meds and is asleep. The concern now is that there is a fragment of stone still in there trying to pass.
God help Suzie!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
So, Suzie had her surgery today to remove her mamoth kidney stone. She is in recovery right now (5-14-10 at 1:20 pm) and doing fine.
Chances are good that they will keep her overnight for pain control and she will be home tomorrow to start her recovery.
Thank God it's over!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
So, I bought Katie an engagement ring and gave it to her last week. She, of course was as shocked as if I had slapped her with a dead mackerel.
What does this mean?
I can't quite say the M word (marriage) but I wanted to make some commitment with her that when she moves to San Diego with her daughter at the end of the year (the daughter is in the Navy and being stationed there), that we would try and work out our family ties and find a way to be together again.
Stay tuned. I don't know how this will pan out, I am working without a net here!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Overweight, overworked, and disenchanted, Kerkeling was an unlikely candidate to
make the arduous pilgrimage across the Pyrenees to the Spanish shrine of St.
James, a 1,200-year-old journey undertaken by nearly 100,000 people every year.
But he decided to get off the couch and do it anyway. Lonely and searching for
meaning along the way, he began the journal that turned into this utterly frank,
engaging book. Filled with unforgettable characters, historic landscapes, and
Kerkeling's self-deprecating humor, I'm Off Then is an inspiring travelogue, a
publishing phenomenon, and a spiritual journey unlike any other.
Suzie was kept at the hospital overnight even though the stone had not moved. She stayed for pain control.
Tuesday evening, they finally released her on percoset. They said her kidney was swollen from all the probing they had done trying to get the tube in for the laser.
In two weeks she goes back to surgery to try again. Oh boy!
Monday, April 26, 2010
I am at the ER at St. Joseph hospital, not with Dad as is usual, but with Suzie.
Seems she has grown the Mt Rushmoor of kidney stones. She went in for laproscopic surgery this morning to have it removed but they could not get to it.
They sent her home and set her up for another operation in two weeks. Well, I guess all that poking around this morning made the kidney stone (she named it Harvey) angry, and it started moving.
What pain! A hundred times worse than labor she said and came on instantly. She is on her 4th shot of morphine now...lucky bum. They won't even give me a rum and coke.
Life is so unfair!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
This morning Lucy and I had a disagreement. She had found a way to get out of the fence and decided that it would be great fun to watch me chase her through the apartment complex in my pajamas and slippers. In the rain. And the wet grass. With a cold.
I caught her eventually but at one point I felt like Colonel Klink from Hogan's Heros chasing Lucy and screaming, "come back here, there has never been an escape from Stalaag Thirteen!"
If you are too young to remember that program, Damn you anyway! You'll be old someday!
Monday, March 8, 2010
So I haven't written in a month but, there hasn't been much going on.
I have started a job as a cabbie for Yellow Cab company, and I assure you, I will now have lots to write about.
Yes, yes, cab driving is dangerous, and yes, yes, there aren't many women cabbies.
But when did I ever do anything normal?
So, I shall try and be more diligent about writing on this blog now that I will have more to write about...like the woman I picked up the other day who spent $28.70 for a ride to Jack in the Box and back, plus purchased $14.oo in food. Sating an addiction? Priceless!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I was sitting in my usual comfy chair at Starbuck’s working a crossword puzzle and sipping my latte. It was a busy Sunday morning; the usual crowd sat in their usual places drinking their usual java concoctions--expertly brewed by the usual baristas.
Then what comes careening into the parking lot but this white van with a huge Hello Kitty emblem on the side and Barry Manilow’s Mandy blaring out of the stereo speakers.
I smirked at the man who always sits in the comfy chair next to me, but rather than smirk back at this strange display, he has a look of horror on his face and abruptly leaves.
“I’m Satan,” he says to me.
“Good to meet you” I reply curtly hoping to dissuade him from further conversation. I didn’t even look up from my crossword. What kind of nut introduces himself as Satan?
“You don’t believe me,” he says, obviously not getting my rebuff.
“It’s a strange way to introduce yourself,” I reply.
“You were expecting horns and a tail? They all do. I just refuse to be pigeon-holed like that.”
“Let’s just say that I wouldn’t expect Satan to be wearing Bermuda shorts.”
“But, you hate Bermuda shorts. And you hate those, “I’m with Stupid” t-shirts. You also hate Hello Kitty and Barry Manilow’s song Mandy.”
“How do you know?”
“I’m Satan, I know what every human hates. What do you think Hell is, just fire and brimstone? No way. Hell is different for every human based on what they hate the most. That man sitting next to you when I pulled up didn’t see Hello Kitty or hear Mandy playing; he saw George Dubbya and heard The Hustle.”
Now I shivered and I am not the kind of man who shivers easily. “Why the hell--heck are you bothering me?”
“There’s been a lull in Hell lately, what with all the end of the world talk and bad economy, everybody’s turning religious. So I have had some of my boys out doing demographics and we have found that the majority of people in America are getting hooked on coffee and computer games, especially Farmville, which surprises the hell out of me. So, I had a meeting with God to discuss it.”
“With God?” I was sure this guy was a nut case, “like you did about Job way back when?”
“Yes, and you know in all these years God hasn’t changed a bit. When I mentioned this He said He couldn’t change, that He was immutable. What kind of word is that?”
“Yes. And He agreed to let me make coffee drinking and computer gaming sins until things pick up in the usual abominations department.”
“How accommodating of Him.”
“He’s a good guy really. A bit touchy still about our little falling out a million years ago, but I can’t blame him for that. When you’ve existed forever, things are bound to stick in your craw.”
“You can’t leave,” Satan said calmly, “I have a proposition for you. I will ensure that you can keep drinking your lattes if you will agree to continue coming here and pushing the beverage. And if you would start playing and pushing computer games there might even be a bonus in it for you.”
Monday, January 11, 2010
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
I haven't blogged in a while again and can't say for sure why. Maybe laziness.
Dad is still in the nursing home and not doing well. He has another bladder infection and is becoming more confused and weak as time goes on. He fell flat on his back last Saturday and I must say has the strongest bones on the planet for he has fallen many times and not broken anything.
I am still without gainful employment and still looking in a very depressed economy.
On the bright side, I have a roof over my head and food to eat and people in my life who love me, and you , Lucy!